GOD STATUS FOCUS SKILS

Hey Liz here, just thinking about how incredible it is the way I can focus on something when I am supposed to be focusing on something else. That is kind of the only time I can truly focus. I'm fine with it, I think I beat myself up a fair amount because of it but also if thats how I get stuff done then thats how it is! The blessing is the awareness to know that something I'm doing isnt the way I'd ideally do it.

I wish writing jokes was more straight forward... for me. I get that some people have it down to a science and that sounds all fine and good but my brain dont work no way like that stuff. I aint no math calculator! I'm a lady, a lady who loves to graze all day AND eat big meals three times a day. I throw q-tips and boogers into the wild instead of placing them in the trash can. This is the person you expect to have a tight set up punch style? The only thing tight about me is my... ? I don't even care anymore, my pussy I guess? GOd.

sure everyone gets that there is such a cliche of the female comedian talking PUSSYPUSSYPUSSYPUSSY and yessss of course, that is me. I am that, in the flesh. It is an insane stereotype that I very organically I should add, have added to by just existing and creating stand up. I'm sick of it! I do think there is a lot of humor there and at the time for a while, I was going through things that made me create that. Maybe its the new self love or just maturing I have done but I just dont really feel like a sloppy wet pus. I feel like, well I do feel slop wet pus but just more privately,

Its so stupid to have a true self revelation because of a pussy joke but that really is where my life has led me. Thank God.

I'm thinking the next step is to allow myself to be distracted and see how focused I can be with all of the different things my brain allows me to focus on. Over all, I trust myself truly and deeply. I know whatever happens is meant to happen. If I focus on my blog and my website too much and neglect my stand up writing enough I may end up being a website designer and a blog writer... what a nightmare!