FINDING MYSELF?? she hoped!

I’m not sure if anyone is checking in on my blogs but I’ve been severely behind. A lot of my life is constantly feeling like I’m severely behind. I just want to feel connected to the present moment that connects me to an inner feeling of joy and peace. Whenever I think of being present, my mind is attacked with thoughts of regrets from the past or pressures from my future hopes and dreams. This is not always but it is more frequent than I would like. I would like for things to flow naturally in my life. 

patience is a practice.

a practice for what? a practice that allows you to find being patient easier.

It will always be required, life simply demands waiting and for time to pass.

I have so much trouble staying on task and feeling like what Im doing isn’t the important thing to do. I want to be drenched in stand up comedy constantly but I find myself constantly doing other things that are not that and they don’t feel too good. Even this blog isn’t what I truly want to be doing, it’s a distraction from the joke writing I should be doing I can feel it. Maybe I’ll be posting a joke a day or something because this does need to change.

These blog entries will be a unpredictable for the foreseeable future. The only thing I hope to see from these blog posts is consistency.

That will be my top prayer for now: consistency... and of course patience.

These two things create each other! I think! If you are consistent you are likely going to need to be patient because it is difficult to stay on task.

THEN you see results! Teaching yourself how much patience really does matter and benefit you.

 Im going to just write jokes for the next few mins until I have the uber pick me up. I have a 9:25 spot at the mothership tonight. What a blessing to be able to say! I am so grateful for my life. This blog stuff is cute but Im pretty sure my calling is to be the greatest comedian I can possibly be and reach out / inspire a group of people. I want to figure out how to be a vessel for the comedy to flow through. 

I guess that begins with doing it. BYE